I was thinking today about love and the people who debate if they've ever been in it. That, of course, depends on how you see love I suppose. Life is all about perception. I have loved many many people. Being in love, well that's something different entirely. I'd say with confidence that I've been in love once. After that, I'd say it's not that it wasn't possible but that I wouldn't let myself go there. The thing that we need to remind ourselves is that love doesn't hurt. It's the ending of it, the changing of it, the loss of it that really does a number on us. I got to thinking about that this weekend when someone who I

I know I know, you're reading this thinking "whoa, this is public" right? I'm not naming names, nor pointing fingers. I'm not a saint or without flaws. I'm just a girl who writes to save herself, who writes to ground herself, and who writes because I believe it serves a purpose. I'm sorry if you disagree with me. And as far as love, I'm not chasing it, but I'm also done putting on the breaks for the "right time". I have the same morals I did 5 years ago. I am still the same person who is working to improve herself every single day. Today looks like a good day for an uphill climb.
Ps. This song is a song I used to love very much. There's a line in it that used to sum up the reason I ran: "What I'm trying to say is I was afraid that you'd leave, so I slept with my failures and started to grieve". Melancholy and beautiful this song is:
I think it's time you give someone who really deserves you a chance... like me.
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